i feel stupid...

i feel stupid right now..
i don't know why..
maybe because i'm not ready to face everyone..
i am in a major depression..
maybe i'm in a some kind of a psychiatric disorder..
i need someone talk with..
but my thoughts are not compiled and organized...
everything is scattered right now..
i feel like dying..
i don't feel loved by anyone..
eventhough i know that someone loves me..
i am a jerk!
i am stupid!
i don't like what i feel right now..
God help me through this feeling...
i reall don't like it!